Road Trip

Hey eveyone! I'm riding along with my friend Keith Tienken in his truck. I've been in 7 states in 6 days. Ca, Or, Id, Ut, Wy, Ne, Iowa toinght. We are at the worlds biggest truck stop "Iowa 80". I'm having a great time and will have more pictures up soon. This is a picture of the Rocky Mountains from the truck in Idaho. I have more to tell but not much time left to write tonight. We are headed to Ohio and then get another load back to Illionis. Hopfully from there we will go to Alanta, Ga.

Day 5

We spent last night in Payette, Idhao and got up early to drive into Layton, Ut. We spent a lot of time paralleling the rockies. this is one of my favorite pictures of taken today. I'm all moved in to the truck now. I really love being out here and seeing the country. The culture of truck drivers is something I find myself comfortable in. Well I'm off for more adventures.....

Day Three

More waiting around for a dispatch which came around noon. Off we go to pick-up in Idaho and deliver in Ohio. Best part was the drive through the Columbia River Gorge. Beautiful!!! I saw several waterfalls and took some pictures from the truck while we were diving along. However the weather didn't really like us. It rained, hailed, sleeted, and snowed all day. Still I enjoyed the ride. Keith and I talk about me and my problems, how to work on them and over come the pitfalls...... Sometimes it's hard and I've got alot of work to do. I also got my first glance of the rockies (that is that I remember) Hope you enjoy the pictures. The picture above was taken in the Gorge out the window while we were driving by. I love the look with the clouds. The picture below of the bird was taken through the front windshield in the rain while we were waiting for a disbatch. It's funny to see all the birds at the rest stops eating off the grills of the trucks. they are eating all the dead bugs. I guess they enjoy their bugs cooked too....

Long Day!!

Today was a lot of hurry up and wait. We got to the delivery site at 8:30am, they didn't tell us that their freezer was down and send us to the new site until 11am, then it took another 1.5hrs to unload us. Then back to Brooks to wait for another dispatch. We didn't get one so we grabed a shower and called a couple of Keith's friends who picked us up for dinner and a movie. We saw Enterprise..... WOW!!! I loved it. More tomorrow..........

First Day!

I got picked up around 10pm last night and we headed for Dunnigan to sleep for the night. It took about 2 hrs to reach Dunnigan. This morning we got up and headed for Willows to stop at "Nancy's" for breakfast and pick somethings up at Walmart. Then on toward Portland, Or. I driven from Sac to Ashland before but usually I was the driver and didn't get to look out the windows too much. The California high desert is kinda bornig but the mountains in Orgon are beautiful! We reached Brooks Or just north of Salem about 9pm. Very long drive. Sleeping at the terminal in Brooks tonight. Most people would not believe how long driving for 11hrs is. If you drive 11hrs you work and are up 12-14 depending on how you do meals. I got a rose from the nice people at Nancy's Cafe for Mother's day, Happy Mothers day to everyone!

Going for a Ride!!

Wow I can't believe that I'm getting the chance to go riding for a month in a big rig. My friend is taking me as a way to get away and think about things. He is picking me up tonight. We are headed for Portland, Or. We'll stop tonight at Dunnigan, Ca to sleep for the night. Good thing the truck has two bunks huh??? I'll let you know how it goes....

Testing

There is a time when we all test the people we love the most. It's not fair and most likely they didn't do anything to deserve it. I sometimes find myself testing those I love at the times I least trust myself. It's like I'm looking for a reason not to trust those I love and have close. When I test people I leave them with no way to win. And I then ask more than they can or should do. I've found that it's part and parcel of my depression and negative self talk. "If I'm not good enough for them and I can prove it then I'm right about my self worth." When I look at my life from that view I realize how many good and real great people I've pushed away. I think I've done that again with someone I don't really want to loose. He is a very important part of who I how I am and I care very deeply for him. He asked me to trust him and I have for years, but when he recently asked I kinda unloaded on him. Then I expected more then he can give back. It's not that he can't give it back, it's more that what he writes only barely touches the depths of his emotions. If we could have talked on the phone or even better in person where his eyes say as much as his voice things would have come out much more differently. I know this yet I held him to a much higher standard then he deserved. What we were talking about was difficult under the best of circumstances but I put impossible terms out there. I wanted more knowing he was giving his all and more!! Did this hurt the friendship.... since he isn't talking with me I think so. But who is at fault??? Me yet I don't know how to fix it other than to to say I'm sorry and ask for another chance. I'm not sure I deserve it and I know I've said Way too much but hopefully he will find his way to take the time to read this post and accept that I too make horrible mistakes and get scared and push everyone away in my own way. If he does I hope he remembers that I do love him and would never hurt him on purpose as I know that of him. You know who you are and have all my love and hugs forever...................... miss You.......... I'm sorry! -Babe